Monthly Archives: April 2011
People say, that habit is 2nd nature of human. Yeahhhh…
I was sleeping on 2 pillows, and I thought, that it’s ok. But when my cousin and aunty came to me at Easter, I had to give 1 pillow…. and i realised, that I sleep better on 1 pillow only.
It’s silly example, but it proves, that habits can make our life limited, and closed for new possibilities.
Sometimes we have to change something or even risk lost, to uncover new things in life.
So, lets break habits! And lets enjoy new things in life
Friend is like safe harbour in storms of life.
My friend made phone call to me, when I was at work. I couldn’t talk to much, because kids could kill each other, when I was not watching them. Today again they were in mood for arguing from every silly reason. But my friend needed to talk, so I tried to cheer her up.
She was a bit depressed, because things at work didn’t go perfect. Somebody disappointed her. Besides she was accused for things not being her fault. Nobody likes it.
She is calling me often, when things at her work are going not well, and when she needs to talk.
She is making some cakes today for somebody’s wedding. One is with vodka. She was kidding, that she will buy a bottle, and she will add to cake a bit of vodka, and drink the rest.
I told her, that she shouldn’t stress her self with silly things. That maybe in her eyes absence of mineral water on tables and similar things could seem a big problem, but most of the people didn’t notice anything.
She felt better after talking with me… and all kids were alive, when I finished talking with her
It’s good to have friends, who have a time and will to talk with us, when we need them. Who care for us always.
Real friend is real treasure… and it’s not only popular sentence, but the truest truth.
I wish to write something, but I lost inspiration. Maybe it’s laziness because of Easter.
I had guests since 5 days. My aunty and cousin. I didn’t see them very long time. Many years. They live far from me. It was nice surprise to see them after years.
I was cooking a lot, and spending a lot of time close to table. hehe… especially, that my two brothers with kids came like always at Easter.
I feel the best in my own company. Two new people in house it was almost crowd for me. But they went home today morning, and I miss them…
Tomorrow, I’ll have busy day, so I finish for now.
Have a nice time. Whatever time is there.
I wish to know. I wrote it to check how many people will visit my blog. But I promise, that if I find an answer, for sure I’ll write about it here. If you find an answer 1st, please write about it to me.
But maybe people are right, that love is worth more, that all money of the world… What do you think?
So many thoughts are running through my mind every time. Some people say, that I think too much. But what it means? That I should stop using brain?
All people are functioning on 3 levels: thinking, feelings, and emotions. There should be a harmony between all of them to live life for the fullest, and to enjoy it, and be happy.
My teachers of sociotheraphy told me, that I am functioning mostly on 1 level. Level of thinking. That I’m analysing, and judging all the time. That I don’t let my self to free feelings and emotions to enjoy life. That I should learn from kids that ability.
But my trying of freeing emotions then finished with crying since long time. But I’ll tell you whole story…
There were 15 people in my group. 14 women and 1 man. On our 1st class lasting 5 days (we had classes in some old palace) I claimed him all for my self. I did nothing. Like always. But whole my life, since childhood till now, it was like that. I didn’t have to do anything to announce my presence, and men were following me anyway. Although I’ve never flirted, and I’ve never been showing temptations to them. It’s some mystery, which even me I don’t understand.
Returning to my story. Adam, that man from my group, was spending all the time in my company. I guess, that he felt insecure in company of so many women, and none man. I was giving him feeling of security. And he was giving me the same. We were sitting in the corner, in our own shell. But after some time many of girls had a grudge against me, that I claimed him whole for my self. That it wasn’t fair. I fell under pressure, and I decided to stay away from him. He was sad, and I felt so lonely and insecure. But it was necessary to learn something.
The truth was, that sociotheraphy was working over emotions. Adam and me didn’t want to free them on public. We stood far from the rest of group, watching from distance what’s going on. We didn’t want to join all that madness. When I decided to leave him, I decided to let myself to free emotions, and to push him for doing the same. Then we could learn better. Being in the center of events, not watching them from distance. Leaving safe shell of Adam’s company was painful, but thought me alot. Much more, than staying on a distance, and watching others only.
Very often we prefer to be blind for the truth, and to stay in safe shell of ignorance. Especially, when going out can be very painful. But sometimes we have to risk, and go out. To KNOW, to UNDERSTAND, to LEARN.
laziness can be our the worst enemy sometimes. It’s killing many opportunities, and wasting talents given by God. But I can bet, that many of us felt like numb although once.
When I started my blog, I promised my self updating it regularly. But I am not a fonder of doing anything by force. Writing, where there is nothing to write doesn’t have any sense. At least for me.
So sorry for my laziness, but I’ll write new article, when I’ll find inspiration. Now I’m enjoying spring, and I wish you the same:)
When I was at university, I was sad once, because I felt hurted by some man. I expected support from my best friend, but she said: ” Did you think ever, that you are hurting men?” No, I didn’t, that’s why I asked: “How I am hurting them? I’m trying to be nice mostly.” She answered:” You are hurting them by giving them hope, and then leaving.”
Yesterday somebody reminded me that old story. One of my best buddies called me egoistic, and cruel, because I was ignoring him since some time. Few days ago he offended me, and he was keeping doing that although I told him, that I felt hurted, and I wont forgive him this time. But he was mad at me, and he couldn’t stop himself.
I guessed, that he felt hurted by me. But instead of answer for my question – “What I did wrong?”, he was keeping offending me, and expecting, that I’ll read in his mind.
Yesterday I got offline messages from him on yahoo:
“- miss u
– but u r still cruel
– n i lov u still
– but u r still dumb
– but i lov u still
– u r a darling although u dun use ur brain n u r egoistic
– n i still lov u
– u r a darling buddy but u still dont understand
u r a typical women….
– but still i miss u”
It was really beautiful… and I felt really without brain, that I didn’t notice anything before. Mean I felt something, but I chose not see it.
I felt hurted many times, but the truth is, that I was giving hurts many times also. Many times subconsciously, but it doesn’t justify me. We don’t have to be rude to hurt. Sometimes it’s enough to be blind for somebody’s feelings.
Most of problems between men and women are lieing in problems in communication. When we feel hurted, mostly we are keeping pain inside, instead of saying straight, what’s going wrong. We are cumulating that pain, and we are keeping hurting each other. In the end mostly we even don’t remember why all that started, and who hurted who 1st.
Sometimes it’s really difficult to answer, who is a victim, and who is an aggressor? Mostly both in one. Mostly people, who are hurting others, are doing this because they felt hurted before. It’s really mad circle.
It doesn’t make any sense, because nobody can be a victor in that silly game. Everybody gets wounds. Really much better is talking straight, what’s going wrong. It’s not so easy sometimes, but not impossible. Sometimes good will from both sides is enough.
“If there is a good will, there is great way.” (Shakespeare) So try to say straight: ” I think…”, “I feel…”, I expect…” And life will become probably much easier.
It’s easy to say “people go in and out in our life, it’s natural”, especially on virtual… but it’s not easy to accept it always. Some people gave us to many feelings, and emotions to forget them easily, and accept their absence.
It’s funny, that people, who I liked the most, were in many things similar to me. Some of them so much, that some people were suspecting them for being me
Always, when somebody is disappearing from my life, I feel some vacuum. There was somebody special to me, and then stood emptiness. But even if people leave me in anger, there will be always some profit for me from meeting them. Some useful things. Some knowledge.
People say, that I have some special skill – I can turn my failures into successes. It’s really not so easy. But yes, I can do it… but I prefer successes without failures before
It’s my day for missing. For missing people, who were important in my life, but they disappeared. I wish to get them back in my life… but sometimes better is to close some chapters in life, and go toward future… But not forget them, and good moments we were sharing together. Just to keep good memories, and go ahead.