2011 is going to the end. It’s always a time of reminiscences. It was good year for me. It doesn’t mean, that nothing bad happened. Just nothing important enough to be remembered.
In the past I cared too much for silly things, and for silly people as well. In the past, when somebody was telling me bullshit, I felt irritated. Since long time, in the same situation, I’m laughing like from silly joke.
I stopped trying to understand everybody. I’ll never understand virtual cheaters, why they have to lie, and why they just can’t be honest. I’ll never understand them, but I understood, that I don’t have to. And I don’t need it.
I started drawing after years of break. I was afraid, that I lost talent, and my hand won’t listen to me, but it was silly fear. Or maybe just laziness.
I started driving car after years of break. Beginnings were a bit scary, but I’m still alive,and my car as well, so it’s not so bad.
I started blogging. It’s still not, what I planned, but I like it. The most important is, that I met many wonderful people here. Good, wise, and valuable people full of positive energy. Thanks all of you, my friends from real, and from virtual, but also real, thanks all good people in my life, I got inner peace, I won with illness, and I’m just happy. You helped me to find inner strength, get inner peace, and keep it. So big big thanks for you. God bless you all!
I have some proposition for you. Make the list of all sweet names, and words, which you were called ever. Add new words to this list all the time. When somebody calls you new sweet name, and when you’ll find some in your memory. Keep this list easy to find. And read it always, when somebody tries to bring you down.
Here is my list:
cute baby angel
the best friend
queen of kindness
the best in all universe (from kids with whom I work )
with great soft heart
with good sense of humour
loving life and people
with open mind
If somebody tries to bring you down, remember, that so many people, especially if they know you well and long time, couldn’t be wrong.
If somebody tries to bring you down, it means only, that you are above them.
If somebody hates you, it happens mostly from two reasons:
1. Because they can’t have you
2. Because they can’t be you.
They should remember, that “What goes arround, comes arround”. With 10 times bigger power. So pray for them instead of letting them poisoning you with negative energy.
Smile, and be optimistic. If you fail, it’ll only mean that God has better idea for you. 🙂
It’s easy to say “people go in and out in our life, it’s natural”, especially on virtual… but it’s not easy to accept it always. Some people gave us to many feelings, and emotions to forget them easily, and accept their absence.
It’s funny, that people, who I liked the most, were in many things similar to me. Some of them so much, that some people were suspecting them for being me 🙂
Always, when somebody is disappearing from my life, I feel some vacuum. There was somebody special to me, and then stood emptiness. But even if people leave me in anger, there will be always some profit for me from meeting them. Some useful things. Some knowledge.
People say, that I have some special skill – I can turn my failures into successes. It’s really not so easy. But yes, I can do it… but I prefer successes without failures before 🙂
It’s my day for missing. For missing people, who were important in my life, but they disappeared. I wish to get them back in my life… but sometimes better is to close some chapters in life, and go toward future… But not forget them, and good moments we were sharing together. Just to keep good memories, and go ahead.