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12 hours in Berlin

beginning – Alexander Platz

Cathedra

Reichstag

Futuristic architecture

Museum of Instruments

Museum of Ancient Culture

Cathedra at night:

German Impressionists Museum

end – Brandenburger Tor

I made many kilometres by foot, from 2 p.m 25th August to 2 a.m. 26th. I liked the most Cathedra. In the middle of the night we could watch spectacle of light and sound outside it.

Berlin isn’t city of my dreams.  I didn’t like it in the day light, but at night it got special atmosphere. What’s the most important – I was really glad, that I was there.

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Jasmine lulaby

I love Jasmin since childhood. Close to my house there was some Jasmin bush with amazing aroma. I was happy, when father brought home that little bush… Alas it’s didn’t smell. After years it became big, and beautiful while blossoming, but I miss that sweet aroma all the time.  I don’t know, why I didn’t pick some new Jasmin bush…

My Jasmin. On the right white Peonias.

Memories of childhood

So true… hehe

Letter to nowhere – questions with no answers.

Your silence does not hurt me now… Does it mean, that I love you no more? Does it mean, that I became wiser, and that, as self-defence reaction because of too much pain gotten before, I became a stone hearted?


I am not crying since long time. Does it mean, that I am cold now?  Or maybe it means, that I cried oceans, and my eyes became dry, and even when I want to cry, I just can’t?

You told me long time ago, that you knew, that you made a damage in me… So what, that you knew it? Should I suffer less because of that?

You told me – “Stop thinking about me. Stop hurting yourself”. My mind listened… but heart was duff. But if you knew, that there was no future for us, why would you play with my feelings? What kind of profit would you get from that game? My pain?

My friend told me, that we need balance between mind and heart in life. If we can’t get it, we won’t be happy, and our life won’t be complete. He didn’t tell me, how to find that balance.

There are a lot of questions. Mostly without answers. And even if we get answers, mostly it’ll be too late to safe anything.  If anyway we get something, mostly it’ll be only precious knowledge. About our selves. About people. About life. But does that knowledge can make us happy?

I am not sad. Not at all. I just wish to know answers.  But maybe I should stop making questions? Maybe I should stop thinking, and just catch a day?

Love letters

Simple thing, but great voice of Alison Moyet made it amazing. Don’t you agree with me? I like her performance much more, than Elvis Presley one.

Love letters lyrics

Love letters straight from your heart
Keep us so near while apart
I’m not alone in the night
When I can have all the love you write

I memorize every line
And I kiss the name that you sign
And darling, then I read again right from the start
Love letters straight,from your heart.

I memorize every line
And I kiss the name, and i kiss the name that you sign
And darling, then I read again right from the start
Love letters straight,from your heart.

Letter to nowhere – you were all my life

Sometimes pain inside is so big that you have to share it to survive. So I started sending long time ago letters to account used no more by somebody, who gone.


Memories

I remember days, when you cared for me, when I felt special and unique. Our friend told me once, that she was visiting my page very often to see your human face. All people knew you as extremely arrogant boy, but you’ve never been like that for me. You were always nice, full of care and respect.

I didn’t want to fall in love with you. Not at all. I was to big realist to believe that there was any future for us. I don’t know, how it happened, that I fell in love with you. I really didn’t want it… maybe because I felt subconsciously, that it will kill me some day.

I didn’t want to fall in love with you, because I was afraid, that it’ll destroy everything, what was before.  I even didn’t suspect, how much I was right about it. If I knew it, I would never let myself to fall in love with you.

You broke my heart a while after I fell in love with you.  Like you were waiting for that moment to put a knife deep inside my heart, when it’ll hurt the most. Till now I don’t know, why all that happened to me? My the only fault was, that I loved you too much.

You were all my life. When you gone, I lost my reasons for life. It’s miracle, that I’m still alive.

This is the day – calendar of your life

Sometimes you wake up, look through the window, and you get sureness, that this is the day, when your life with surely change. You can’t explain, how you could get such sureness. You just feel it.

This is the day – lyrics

Well, you didn’t wake up this morning

Because  you didn’t go to bed

You were watching the whites of your eyes turn red

The calendar on your wall is ticking the days off

You’ve been reading some old letters

You smile and think how much you’ve changed

All the money in the world

Couldn’t buy back those days

You pull back your curtains

And the sun burns into your eyes

You watch a plane flying

Across a clear blue sky

This is the day

Your life will surely change

This is the day

When things fall into place

You could’ve done anything if you’d wanted

And all your friends and family

Think, that you’re lucky

But the side of you they’ll never see

Is when you’re left alone with the memories

That hold your life together… like glue

You pull back your curtains

And the sun burns into your eyes

You watch a plane flying

Across a clear blue sky

This is the day

Your life will surely change

This is the day

When things fall into place

This is the day, your life will surely change

This is the day, your life will surely change