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The truth about the trust


Whatever happens – happens…

I couldn’t say it better – If you love something…

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You are everything I need and more – Beyonce “Halo”

I wont say anything this time. Just listen to the song, and enjoy it.

LYRICS:-

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they’re tumbling down
And they didn’t even put up a fight
They didn’t even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
It’s the risk that I’m takin’
I ain’t never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You’re the only one that I want
Think I’m addicted to your light

I swore I’d never fall again
But this don’t even feel like falling
Gravity can’t forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
The risk that I’m takin’
I’m never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Thank you Andres for sharing this song with me today 🙂

Silence before the storm

Sometimes we feel, that our life stood in dead point. Nothing interesting happens, nothing interesting to do. But it can be like a silence before a storm. So prepare your self for what can come. And accept it, whatever it’ll be. Good, bad, whatever. because nothing happens without a reason… although sometimes we can’t find out, what that reason could be.

Something energetic 2 – dreams come true

Subconscious mind has a power to make dreams come true. Because it can’t recognise, what is a dream and what’s reality. If you think about your dream like about thing, which is happening to you, it’ll become real thing. I got that way new furnitures, laptop, better mobile and tv, antique cupboard, better salary.  Things I thought before, that they are only my dreams. 

When I feel down, and I need some power to stand up,  I’m listening “I feel good” by James Brown, and I feel much better. It’s the way to cheat subconscious mind. When it hears, that you feel good, it’ll make you feeling good in real.  Read “Power of subconscious mind” by Joseph Murphy, and you’ll understand, what I’m taking about.

All good things, which happened to me happened because of power of subconscious mind and the power of faith in God, and trust him. Probably these two things have to exist together to our dreams come true.

And one else important thing – you have to clear your mind and heart from negative thoughts, feelings and emotions to your dream could come true. If you wish people wrong, it’ll come to you back like boomerang. Let them be! God will give them, what they deserve.

Your dreams come true farther, when your mind will be full of positive thoughts, and your heart full of positive feelings only. All bad thoughts, feelings, and emotions are obstacles on the way to your dreams come true.

I like the most version “I feel good” from the movie – “Asterix & Obelix – mission Kleopatra”. I like a lot whole that movie.

Ridders on the storm


Title of the famous song of The Doors inspired me to write this post. Or maybe what happened today reminded me this great song. It doesn’t matter. Just, what happened to me today, was very impressive.

I went to work by bicycle. 2 kilometres only, so it was a nice trip. Sun was touching my face, and there was pleasant wind. Giving fresh touch, and not disturbing.

A while before I had to go back home, I heard noisy thunders. And I could see flashes of lightness. Storm was coming. I decided to go home, believing, that this time also God will protect me.

I was bicycling hearing thunders after my back. Wind became stronger. Flashes of lightness were appearing more often. But even one drop of the rain didn’t touch me. I felt few of them only, when I was at door.

It was really amazing! How I could stop believing in God’s protection and care? How I could stop believing in his existence?

I believe, that he sees all, although we can’t see him. I believe, that he listen to us, and he is giving us answers for our prayers.

Sometimes, we can’t understand his ways, but he loves us, and all, what happens, happens from some reason. And all bad will turn finally into something good for us.

Message to my enemy

You are trying, and trying to destroy me, and hurt me with hands of people dear to me. You still don’t understand, why you can’t touch me? What is giving me so big strength to survive all your dirty attacks? Answer is very easy. I feel all the time God’s protection and care. If you can’t believe it, you won’t believe in God at all.  I believe. And I believe, that He is justify judge. That He sees all. That He can read in our hearts like in open books.

I don’t know, what reward I’ll get, when my day will come, but I trust God, and his justify judgement.

I am not going to church or mosque to pray. I am not making any silly ceremonies. I built the temple for God in my heart. That’s why He is with me all the time. Maybe it’s a bit rebellious, but I know, that God understands me.

I am not an angel, and I don’t pretend as you do. I made many mistakes in life, but I have a courage to convince to them.  I am imperfect, and I understand, that other people are also imperfect. That they can make mistakes. That’s why I’m forgiving so easily.

You are trying to destroy everything, what’s good and beautiful in my life. You are trying to destroy my every relationship. How you want to destroy my relationship with God? The only one really important for me. By giving him bullshit and lies about me, like you are doing with my friends? Do you really think, that you can cheat God like you do with people? If you believe it, so you really don’t believe in God’s existence. And in his ability of seeing everything.

I am not going to your world, so why you are trying to invade mine again and again with so many fake identities? Don’t you think, that it’s silly and childish?

God is love. It’s my duty to follow him. So I forgive you all lies, and all your evil acts. I love you my enemy, whoever you are. I’ll pray for peace of your soul and mind. For cleaning them from bad feelings and emotions. Stay in peace dear 🙂

2nd life on virtual – how to not be cheated.


Some people are making second life on virtual. Especially when they are unhappy in real. Here everybody can be young, rich and beautiful.

How to get second life on virtual?

1. Make a profile with informations, who you want to be.

2. Make accounts of nonexisted relatives and friends to make your legend more true.

3. Add random people to your list, to show, that you have many friends. Delete everybody  smart enough to doubt, that you are real.

4. Make account of nonexisted lover, who will follow you everywhere to repeat how wonderful angel you are, and how much he/ she loves you, but you love another.

5. If somebody is curious, why you are rejecting opening cam, tell him/her, that you are shy and modest, but he/ she can ask your best friends, and relatives, in real your fake identities, and they can swear, that you are real. People are naive, and they are able to believe in words people, whom they never met in real, when the same lie is repeated many times. Soon they will lie also, that they saw you. From shame, that they could be taken as so naive to believe virtual cheaters.

6. If somebody uncovers your dirty game, go to all people arround with fake accounts, and talk bad about that person, and good about hurted you. It sounds unbelievable, but people are really able to believe in every bullshit and nonsense repeated many times by many people, who in real can be 1 person.

7. If somebody is still forcing you for opening cam, show him/her once somebody. Your daughter, your neighbor, and it will be enough. Many people will believe, that you don’t want to open cam more times from modesty and shyness.

8. Find some real, naive, but handsome/ pretty lover, who will be your alibi, a proof, that you are real.

9. If you have some friends, who want to help you, you will be able to cheat almost everybody.

It happened to me long time ago on perfspot. Some woman destroyed my relationship. She played young pretty angel, although in real she was old, ugly, and dirty. I met her nonexisted lover, who was crying all arround, that he loved her as crazy, but she chose another. I knew, that they were 1 person, because they were making the same very characteristic mistakes in English. But many men believed in her legend. Even some very young ones.

She was talking to me alot, that’s why I got sureness, that she is a liar. She played well-educated, rich woman, but from her style of talking I got sureness, that she is very mean person. And much older than me.

I found her real picture by coincidence. I don’t know, why she posted it for a while as display. Maybe some her dirty lover convinced her, that she is so pretty in real, that she should use the real picture? I don’t know.

Friend, who betrayed me for her, didn’t want to talk with me. She made him think so bad about me, that he broke contact with me. But I found a way to tell him about real face of that old ugly cheater. He was in shock. He told me, that she, and her “friends” were talking very bad about me, and about her like about real angel, just perfect woman. It was strange, because nobody from them never met me,  and my friend believed them. They told him, that I am cyber slut, and he was crazy from jealousy and anger. They told him also, that I was talking bad about him, and he also believed them. He was mature man, and policeman, and they were able to cheat him. That’s why I wasn’t surprised, that they cheated many young, naive boys.

My friend asked her for opening cam to prove, that she is not a cheater, but she was repeating, that she doesn’t have to prove anything to anybody, and her best friends know, how she looks, so he can ask them. He left that old ugly cheater in anger, that he was so easy target for virtual cheaters, and so easy to lead astray.

I got hundreds rude messages from fake accounts, that I am old, ugly whore etc. , and that I envy that young, and pretty angel. You can see under text how young and pretty that “angel” was.

I showed on public real picture of that old cheater. She promised me to destroy me, and my every relationship.

When I got on facebook similar troubles, and similar messages like those on perf, my friend cheated on perf, told me, that those evil people came after me to my fb. I believed him, because everything was very similar to what happened on perf. Only names were different.

I don’t now, why those people are stalking on me, because they never told me the truth. All, what I know is, that they are mostly old, ugly and dirty, and that they are accusing me for their own sins. I got requests from many dirty and vulgar people, especially men, who would like to be proves of my dirtiness. It was really silly.

I  know, that naive people believe them in every nonsense about me. And I know, that my real friends, who know me well, will never believe them. So all those lies and bullshits about me are  some kind of tests for friendship – is it real or fake.

I wrote all this to warn you people before virtual cheaters. You can’t be sure, who are people, with whom you are talking on virtual, before you’ll meet them in real. And even then you can be cheated. It’s sad, but true.

Perfect people don’t exist in real. Everybody is imperfect. So, if somebody is to perfect on virtual, you can be sure, that it’s only virtual creation, nothing more.

I am on virtual 3 years. And I didn’t meet a cheater, who didn’t make any mistake. They always do or say something, what betrays them.

All, what happened to me, can happen to everybody. People, who are creating 2nd life on virtual, need our attention. They can’t exist without it. Our care, anger, suffering is making their fake existence real. Ignoring them is the best way for winning with them. In the past I was fighting with them. But I became wiser, and I was deleting them from my list. Some, who were disturbing me the most, I blocked.

Use a rule of limited trust, keep eyes, and mind open, and you will be difficult to cheat.

Enjoy company of good friends, and nice people, and break contact with everybody, with who you don’t feel comfortable… and you will enjoy virtual for the fullest.

Supplement:

In 1st version I posted here picture of that old woman from my article, and one from many pictures, which she was using as display, but my friend convinced me, that it wasn’t fair,  so I deleted them. She convinced me, that even cheaters have some feelings. That they so terribly need some feeling, that they do everything to get it.

This animated movie is better, than picture of half-naked old woman. More funny, and it’s not hurting anybody’s feelings.

Life is unpredictable.

It happens many times, that people, about whom we thought, that they were good friends, betrayed us. And people, about whom we thought, that they were our enemies, became our good friends. It’s possible, when we can break power of 1st impression.

I don’t trust people easily, and I don’t expect, that they will be loyal and honest with me for ever. I hope for that, but I am ready for the worst. So if they betray me, it wont hurt so much. But if they are loyal and honest, it’ll be nice surprise.

Life thought me, that nobody is totally good or totally bad. I am open for people. I can change my opinion. But with some people I just can’t feel well, so better for me is to stay away from them. Even if they are extremely nice and sweet.

I am not an angel, and I don’t pretend. But when I love, I am able to incredible sacrifices. I can fight for people, whom I love even risking my life. All my life I’m looking for a man able to do the same thing for me. A man on whom I can depend always. I man, who will care for me, but who wont treat me like personal property. I can sacrifice myself on altar of love, but I can’t renounce freedom.

Life is surprising us very often. I hope, that pleasant surprises will be more, than unpleasant ones. And I wish you all the same 🙂