Letter to nowhere – you were all my life

Sometimes pain inside is so big that you have to share it to survive. So I started sending long time ago letters to account used no more by somebody, who gone.

Memories

I remember days, when you cared for me, when I felt special and unique. Our friend told me once, that she was visiting my page very often to see your human face. All people knew you as extremely arrogant boy, but you’ve never been like that for me. You were always nice, full of care and respect.

I didn’t want to fall in love with you. Not at all. I was to big realist to believe that there was any future for us. I don’t know, how it happened, that I fell in love with you. I really didn’t want it… maybe because I felt subconsciously, that it will kill me some day.

I didn’t want to fall in love with you, because I was afraid, that it’ll destroy everything, what was before.  I even didn’t suspect, how much I was right about it. If I knew it, I would never let myself to fall in love with you.

You broke my heart a while after I fell in love with you.  Like you were waiting for that moment to put a knife deep inside my heart, when it’ll hurt the most. Till now I don’t know, why all that happened to me? My the only fault was, that I loved you too much.

You were all my life. When you gone, I lost my reasons for life. It’s miracle, that I’m still alive.